I’m ready to take chances
I’m ready to take a bold step
I’m ready to be free
I’m ready to see me
I’m ready to feel what others are feeling
I’m ready to be with you my darling
I’m ready to be not me
I’m ready to be what I should be
I’m ready to fly
I’m ready to get high
I’m ready to feel yours next to mine
I’m ready to try!
- aleyn oh
How will you describe the trees?
Green, brown and luscious to look at
How will you describe what I’m feeling?
Blue, pink and red, maybe black combined with other colorful emotions
How will you define love?
Alone, happy, give and take or something common
How will you define me?
Needy, greeney, enthusiastic, unreal
How will you say that you’re happy?
Fleeing with glee, dancing with the moon and saying out loud hey I’m okey
How will you be happy?
Only with you, my evergreen, my moon, sky and my colorful you!
- aleyn oh
When was the last time I felt this
I can’t remember
I don’t know when
I would love to know where
And the answer is still vague and nowhere
I would traveled the whole world just to search for you
Only you, my ever blue, my sky, my you
The only reason I am writing this
Because I know that when you are here and you found me
We will be as one, pure, unselfish and unbeatable
Like a team in tennis when one is needed the other one is there always
My poem for you would be here always
My writing, my thoughts, my you
A poem would never be tired
For you and would always be for two!
Like my love for you my darling
Always here, never fails, never fade
Please take my love my sweetest
Just like this poem that cannot be completed
If it would be just for me; without you, my other half…
And this poem’s number two…
- aleyn oh
i am a self-professed couch potato. i usually spent sleepless nights staring at the television, feeling the boob tube to entertained me. and yes, i admit it always did. Aside from books, that I can’t live without television maybe the next in the list. i guess the influence of working in an institution called the ‘media’ is the main reason why i love it and dreams of it and now look at me I am a part of it. So enough of my common introduction of life and myself again. This is sometying I am going ga-ga over the months and guess what after a year long addiction on One tree Hill ( which is I am still into) I found another one to look forward to. Presenting my new love life—- HOW I MET your Mother?! - a love story in reverse.
Yes, i love the show and i’ve seen everything up to Season 4, Episode 6. After Seinfeld, Friends, 30 Rock and the office Finally i am laughing again. of course, Heroes. chuck, One tree Hill, Felicity, Dawson’s creek, ally McBeal, Rosswell, Desperate Housewives, Lipstick Jungle, the foodnetwork shows all of them are my guilty pleasures but in a different genre. But How I met is a combination of all of them. I am laughing, thrilled, most of the time thinks, and fall in love. so what is this all about… i think you have to get a grasp of the next sentences to understand why I am lunatic about it.
The series is such a heck very good to be in television. It is a story of Ted, a young architect who is searching for the love of his life. It started when Lily and Marshall his college mates being engaged. With the sudden change of events, Ted wanted something good in his life- a long time partner. Joining the cast is the awesome guy- the former doggie Houser M.D star, Barney (Lee Patrick Harris), who is the perfect description of a “bia-tch” version of a guy. He dates lots of girls, go on bed and leave them in the morning, crashes parties to meet loads of pretty and sexy gals and give life ideals that will just be beneficial to a good looking bachelor like him.
The year is 2030, Ted is telling the story to his kids on how he met the mother ( of course of the children). The journey started 2005, when he met Robin an aspiring reporter, a Canadian and very gorgeous lass. Ted knew at the moment that he is the right one. Seeing Robin is the start of everything.
Since i am in a hiatus stage, i hate to say this but i lose my office charm. Yes, I did. i don’t go in the office often. for a week, i am working only for three days. Actually it’s a good thing since i regain my enthusiasm with my old romantic flicks. I’ve spent sleepless nights watching my favorite romantic flicks. It’s kind of weird because I know I’ll be thinking of singleness and blessedness situation again. i mean come on, I am human and i do feel that longing feeling for someone. I don’t have any serious relationship before and if I would have one, I’ll make sure that it will be for keeps. So, enough of my own sentiments…
Being at home again, is a lucky nightmare as me and my sister called it. So I gather all over again my DVD’s VCD’s collection and created a list of must-seen! I know kind of lame and sound very geeky but I can’t help it I am a sucker for romantic movies. The first movie in my list… the book that I am currently reading— THE NOTEBOOK.
This is the first time that I appreciate the movie which can be separated from its original source. I loved the book of course but the movie can stand alone. The lines are superb. The acting is very real– Real- time acting. I was engrossed with the movie; fell in love with the cinematography. There is something about Nicholas Sparks’ movies; aside from the fact that most of them were situated in North Carolina, the way he describes it was well taken in video presentation of the movie.
As I finished the movie, I got goose bumped in the end. Others called it tragic; many considered it as a love story… But for me I love to call it as a “manifestation”. Love is in the air. Something you can feel can’t touch but long lasting. I wish I can make a screenplay as something THE NOTEBOOK offers. The movie makes my day and even gave me the drive to watch more…
Next in line was another Nicholas Sparks’ classic- “A Walk to Remember”.
I know you may think that it’s very high school and very not me but there’s something about this movie that I enjoyed the most— is the Mandy Moore and Shane West teamed- up. Okey, I admit! I love romance and also the impossibilities.
I love miracles and this movie gives me a heck of what it should mean. It’s not biblical as the book, but they were able to present it as something kids in this generation can appreciate. I love the songs and I love how Moore was able to render it. Kudos to the people behind this incredible movie!
I’ve been addicted and I have to see my top favorite— TWO WEEKS NOTICE.
Everything that involves Sandra Bullock and Hugh Grant I admit – it is the one thing I can’t resist. I love their movies and seeing them being teamed-up in a romantic flick is a plus, a bonus in my part. I love chatting, talking to a person I like and this movie was all about that.
The movie maybe boring for others but for me never… Even I’ve seen it zillion times, I can’t resist the charm, wit of Sandra and how she turns every scene to a comic one. The way she looks at Hugh and the way Hugh looks at her is something I admired the most.
The movie is very canny and I wouldn’t trade it with any movie. I just loved how the writer showed the most romantic gestures in a very unpredictable way. Must see, must have and will be in my romantic list as first… Count on that!
LOVE ACTUALLY must make my hiatus week and it does.
I can’t resist the turn over of events as I saw it again. I saw it more than 4 times, but this is the time that I cried and shed tears most. I can’t help it but I was carried away as love was able to express in all aspects– friendship, Romantic relationship, couples, siblings, employee to employer, and father to his step-son.
Love was also explained as something you will feel in a certain time which could be right or wrong . I just enjoyed seeing the simplicity of the movie knowing it was a star-studded production. It has a simple message to everyone: “All we need is love” and “Love is all around me”. — Or should I say us…
The next day, I look for another pile and the list that I created. And I was happy seeing my high school cum college romantic movie that filled my lonely nights… I am taking about— 10 THINGS I HATE ABOUT YOU.
I know, very sad but the man is dead. But I remember every detail in the movie. Heath Ledger’s performance singing Can’t Take my Eyes of You is the must see// scene in the movie. Julia Stiles acting is also a plus. I love high school thingies but this one rocks my world, my entire student days. I even memorized the lines for god’s sake… and what so funny about it is that how I enjoyed the poem even until now. It’s just so me that I enjoyed reminiscin’ and laughing with the flick that I grow up with.
NEVER BEEN KISSED is another flick that I shouldn’t miss.
There is something about Drew Barrymore that makes me shiver. Naks! As if I’m a lesbo, ewww!. Anyways, I just enjoyed the film as it is. How funny it was. David Arquette playing as Rob in the movie makes my Day! This romantic flicks makes me laugh everytime I watched it, if others makes me cry and is very heart breaking, this movie is more of a feel good. I am regaining confidence because of this. I don’t mind watching it all over again. Something I love looking forward too…
MISS CONGENIALITY it’s not just a romantic flick but a combination of action and comedy.
I haven’t thought that there is romance in beauty pageants but with MC which star the ever lovable Sandra, it cracked the hell out of it.
What I enjoy about the movie is Bullock’s transformation– Very sexy, gorgeous on her own, and very funny! I just fell in love with the movie all over again
I couldn’t finish my movie marathon without this legendary piece- REALITY BITES.
I am a sucker for Winona Ryder and not just a fan; I loved being a part of her. Okey stop with my stupidest comment, but Winona and Ethan Hawke are the most unlikely couple a romantic movie will ever have.
Aside from that I am kind of addicted with the movie that I even memorized the songs, the lines and even have products take note- stamps, note pads, etc. with me, is quite explainable. The movie was a breakthrough and that should be accounted to the man behind it- Ben Stiller.
My soulful says it all and since I am a struggling writer this movie must be in my freaking list and I will not forgive myself if I will forget it… I am talking about— HOW TO LOSE A GUY IN 10 DAYS.
Okey, many find it very common, not that intriguing. I don’t care but I have this thing called I am very affected. I don’t know maybe I am just going ga-ga about many things and the movie helped me in some way. The movie which stars the beautiful mom Kate Hudson and the dashing Matthew Mc Counaughey, is about a relationship that is very user-friendly.
They used one another for the fulfillment of their career. It maybe sooo common for others but for me I enjoyed every part of it. The lines make me laugh and so were the characters. I can relate as they say and maybe it’s the main reason why I include it.
Lastly, the Indie film that was produced by Tom Hanks and was written by the star herself Nia VArdolos none other than– MY BIG FAT GREEK WEDDING.
It was well written and well produced. Though it’s Indie, the plot is something I love. It’s very Greek as the writer is, but she wrote it with high respect with her heritage and how the man of his life would love to blend with her family. I saw it very Pinoy rin. Filipinos prioritize things that Greeks also look and think as very important. Family comes first and should be respectful in every decision one should create. I cried at the start of movie, laugh a lot in the middle and fall in love in the end.
There is something about film that I am very fond of –the way they moved me. This is the reason why I really wanted to have my own. In the meantime, since I am figuring out how I will take my crash course on film, I will enjoy all the romantic flicks I have. And there are still a lot of them coming, teaching me to be a one hell-romantic!
i have been in hiatus lately and i am looking for self-discovery as well. while i am writing this entry my i-pod keep on playing a song that has been a big part of my life… my minsan song by e-heads…
minsan sa may kalayaan tayo’y nagkatagpuan
may mga sariling gimik at kaya-kanyang hangad sa buhay
sa ilalim ng iisang bubong
mga sekretong ibinubulong
kahit na anong mangyari
kahit na saan ka man patungo
chorus
ngunit ngayon kay bilis maglaho ng kahapon
sana’y huwag kalimutan ang ating mga pinagsamahan
at kung sakaling gipitin ay laging iisipin
na minsan tayo ay naging
tunay na magkaibigan
minsan ay parang wala nang bukas sa buhay natin
inuman sa magdamag na para bang tayo’y mauubusan
sa ilalim ng bilog na buwan
mga tiyan nati’y walang laman
ngunit kahit na walang pera
ang bawat gabi’y anong saya
repeat chorus
minsan ay hindi ko na alam ang nangyayari
kahit na anong gawin
lahat ng bagay ay merong hangganan
dahil ngayon tayo ay nilimot ng kahapon
di na mapipilitang buhayin ang ating pinagsamahan
ngunit kung sakaling mapadaan baka
ikaw ay aking tawagan
dahil minsan tayo ay naging
tunay na magkaibigan
this song keeps on telling me what went wrong? who fell apart? where are my friends?
last last year on the same month i have been a palaboy yes literally speaking. I have been a bar addict, a coffee buff, an alcoholic cum addictus to late night gimiks and it’s all beacuse of my — friends.
they were different from the friends that i have in highschool, college and even here in the office. we have the same interests, have the drive and goal to pursue and the most important thing is that we share something in common- we all understand one another.
our friendship was something ‘spectacular’ as others called it. we were always at a bar drinking, talking, chatting and liking about one’s ability; understanding everybody’s background. we were 7 and we called ourselves as timogers; since our humble office abode is situated in timog, qc— ABS and GMA.
quite an odd group but it doesn’t stop us to be together and hang out more. Movies, Drinking, Parties, Lugawan kainan, School tambays moments, videoke, pa-birthday, pa-binyag, bahay-bahayan isama mo pa ang Alay Lakad Stint. We spend everyday with one another and doesn’t missed a week in a day without going out.
Pero nakakasawa rin pala. As we grow as a group some of us outgrew their relationship with one another. It was a shocking experience that the people I enjoyed being with became the irritants. And the feeling is mutual for them. It was harder than I thought they were like my brothers and sisters and cannot look at my so-called friends fighting, having indiferrences, and arguing,
But we faced reality.. We face life. Now, we have our separate lives again. Some were retained, others were not. But I am hoping for a heal of every one’s heart. I just miss my friends. If they still considered me one.
No matter what happen this will be song for you: FRIENDS!
Awit Ng Barkada
Nakasimangot ka na lang palagi
Parang ikaw lang ang nagmamay-ari
Ng lahat ng sama ng loob
Pagmumukha mo ay hindi maipinta
Nakalimutan mo na bang tumawa
Eh, sumasayad na ang nguso mo sa lupa
Kahit sino pa man ang may kagagawan
Ng iyong pagkabigo
Ay isipin na lang na ang buhay
Kung minsan ay nagbibiro
Nandirito kami, ang barkada mong tunay
Aawit sa iyo
Sa lungkot at ligaya, hirap at ginhawa
Kami’y kasama mo
O ikaw naman
Kung sa pag-ibig may pinagawayan
Kung salapi ay huwag nang pag-usapan
Tayo’y ‘di nagbibilangan
Kung ang problema mo’y magkatambakan
ang mga utang ‘dio na mabayaran
Lahat ng bagay ay nadadaan sa usapan
Kasama mo
Kasama mo
Kasama mo
when i was young i dreamt of being in a far far away land…
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In my dream land– birds and trees were like my brothers and sisters. the sky was perfect; a picturesque of God’s beautiful creation. the grass were in greens and as you see through it you feel relaxed and comfortable. the ocean was as blue as a young blonde girl’s eyes with smoothing sands that were whiter than a young lady’s white tee. there were swamps where ducks and swans hang around to chat and roam around. there were coys and fishes that were swimming freely, happy with God’s given life and enjoying everything!
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and while i am residing and having a great time with God’s place, I saw myself doing things that i love like photography, documentaries, writing, listening to a good music. There was present the man i loved humming songs with lyrics full of love and passion. there was my simple, small, sweet and peaceful family with little two daughters running and playing as if there is no tomorrow…
As the scene in my head plays on and on my brain and soul spoiled me for too long and as if My dream is very real and in returned I don’t want to wake up… But my body betrayed me. Suddenly I am wide-awake looking at the same room ceiling I saw yesterday, smelling the same aroma I’ve been pulling off for my room… and finally I realized gosh this is really reality. This my room and the image of perfection in my dream instantly vanished. There I found my sister sleeping soundly beside me. I look around again hoping it might be the far far way land and maybe just maybe I am hallucinating. But I am wrong it is the same space I’ve been for the past 23 years– my humble abode.
i have been a prisoner of surrealism for quite some time. and this turn-around that i did with myself is the stranger that i am hiding for the past weeks. I am like this and like that which was in the first place is not me. I’ve been dreaming prefection where in fact there was no guaranteed result. I’ve been a sucker — a life sucker!
I then wanted a new stranger in me. the stranger that once dominated my life. my simple me, the girl who understands and sees life as it is. so what if there are no birds singing and animals running in my backyard. well, i can manage. there are still zoo’s to visit and other virgin forests to explore. i do love oceans and beaches but in reality they are far from my house. i can still go and swim there for a certain time with my family. so what if my family quarrels and fight always, that is reality. i don’t care if they will because if not it will be the strangest thing that i would have thought.
at first i am afraid ro bring myself back in reality. well, i know you too dreamt of falling apart and going to the dream place you have in mind since you are a kid. it’s natural i must say. but there are more into realities that should be faced and understand. right?
so i am trying to enjoy, seize the moment i have right now. it is not perfect and i don’t wished it to be. i am kinda liking my own struggles because i learned from it.
so, i should welcome my new stranger, or the old one?
the answer is in my palms. i know, i think and i feel where will i be heading off…
***
aleyn 
:) 
i don’t know if i am right about this. I mean i shouldn’t be too obsessive on things but recently i am becoming a total freak about my life. so i get it! you can’t understand what am i going through… okey, all right i will orient you.
my professor in masters told us that learning should be fun! enjoy how to learn everyday and make the most out of it. i mean, he is right, defintely! though it may sound very oblivious and very predictable, i would love to learn more things in life than what i am doing right now. so i came up with a list of what will i learn and of course how long it will takes me to finished it.
okey so here’s my ought to be so called- A list!!! as in Allane’s list…
1. After my masters which by the way should be finished next- next year ( whooot!!), I should be indulge and boom a course on film and photography. I know it is quite expensive and I might loose all my energy but i love to know how the camera works. I wanted to create documentaries that will change people’s lives. I know it’s a never ending cliche and it will always be but I can’t move on with my career if i will not do a darn thing of a proper school set-up. I have high respect with the academe and learning from the true-blooded directors and mentors is what I really needed. I am 25 at that time, probably in mid November going December will be my target time.
So as an aspiring photographer / director cum writer, I wanted to spice up my life more. Here are some sample of masterpieces and I am definitely loving the way other people commented about my photos. Well, I don’t have the expertise nor the equipment but the good thing about these babies of mine are the natural value that my phone take note my camera phone allows me to capture. Real and far away from surrealism.
2. at the age of 27 when I mastered the art of film, people, lights and photos i might try do the love of my life— coooking! Ever since i am a kid i wanted to be a Chef. There’s an inside goal in me that one day I would get a crash course in cooking! The scent of pastries, pasta, pizza were outrageous. I can’t help but crave more. My family loves to eat and I would definitely get a course a real training to Culinary Institute in the Country. “They say that do not stop from learning and through learning you’ll value your existence your life and everything about you.”
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At this age I don’t know I might be getting married or my goals are twigged. But definitely the last thing that I wanted to learn is Parenting.
3. Parenting. It’s more than a course but a life. I think I will attend seminars on how to do it and what a mom should be. It’s kind a different from the career courses I prioritize in my early life but I would love to take it seriously. this is a tough job that qill requires me a lifetime. I will be taking this, by hook or by crook.
Maybe you are wondering why in the world I am making a deal out of it. you know to tell you the truth I am not. I just wanted to have a clear goal in mind… forget about darn things like parties, shopping, spa’s and relaxation that young adults at my age care about! I wanted to be different becuase I wanted to and because this is what I want my life would be.
Considering it’s a long term plan I know that things do change. I am aware of that and this list will be just a reminder that along the way of my young adult stage I tried to plan my life and see how I make a difference…
And I would love to see as it happen…
***aleyn
i’m not that afraid of waters and i will never be. i am a lover of beaches, hotsprings , lakes and even small ponds of water. i do love it maybe because i am a true blood pisces-an (my zodiac sign).
three saturdays ago, our company require all their field employees to undergo a swimming lesson. The session will be a basic training on water and swimming for 5 consecutive saturdays. I was really excited and quite a hesitant for I am shy paddling as a dog and swimming like a cat because I don’t know how to do the trick.
as i said earlier i am not afraid of waters but i might lose confidence in this since it’s not my sport ( hahahaha, quite not that sporty i am right now). and maybe because it requires the physical aspect which I know from the fact I am very low off.
but the first session was indeed a lot of fun. I know the basic breathing thing and the floating strategies so I can still manage. things went wrong as the moment passsed because I am like a four year old kid training to be like Phelps and breathing like a fish. wow, it’s really a workout and it makes my muscles ache as if i’ve been doing it for 5 hours but the truth is we were just starting. The moment the session finished, I am kinda glad that I agreed on a training like this. There is nothing more exciting that learning things that are really not your trip— out for your comfort zone.
The next Saturday session was more than a session but was a bonding to remember. And the learnings were really superb. Imagine at the span of two hours I was able to learn freestyle and backstroke. Well I am that fast as far as speed is concern but I know how to do it. And definitely can swim in at least 2 feet add-on to my height… hehehehehe
Anyway, what I remember the most are the friends that I earned. I wasn’t expecting that we will bond as if we are from all the same show. Though quite understandbly, I think the training did its miracle work on how to connect people.
So i am still looking forward for my next Saturday training. It wasn’t finished and I intend to do it regulary. This coming Thursday and Friday I will be going to a secret place and swim in there as if there is no tomorrow.
Wanna join? Well better have a swmming lesson first and let’s enjoy together the beauty of nature.
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***
signing off!
allane
people all over the world are crazy over the sport and love to join different wake bording competition in the country— in our own pristine beach. Well i am just wondering what will be the difference of the venue we will be in a few minutes and the CAMSUR arena. They say that our destination is the first of its kind. I am talking about Lago de Oro which is situated in the heart of Calatagan, Batangas.
I am excited to see how it was done or how it was played. Though I saw a lot in our previous episodes and read it also in magazines and newspaper this is the first time that I am going to see it with my own eyes.
Upon entering the town of Calatagan, we were welcomed by the warm breeze of air- a sign of “pag-itim”as my office mates called it. Our crew ( cameraman and asst.cameraman) were bluffing about the weather and keep on teasing me that I’ll be a “Negra” after the shoot. I just laughed keeping in mind that I shouldn’t be too much concerned about my color since I’ve been a Neg-neg since last Saturday because of my swimming lesson ( see my upcoming post about it).
From afar I saw cables and a big man-made lake intended for the wake boarding game. There were girls and boys who are starting to sail and surf their hearts out. I do want to try it but my condition did not permit to be involved. It’s a girl call and I can’t do it because of that. The crew were also excited though I think this is their second time in the resort ( me however was the virginal— first time in wakeboarding coverage and in the resort as well)
I get out from the van smelling the saltiness of the water. The wakeboarders are fully geared with helmets, boards, and bindings( shoes used for wakeboarding; most of the time they are attached to the board to protect the user). I was amazed looking at a young beautiful woman who sail like a bird and fly in the water as if there is no tomorrow. She swings very gracefully and even flips perfectly complementing her body with the movement of the wind and the waves of the water. There were also guys who surfs and wake board like a pro.
I spend the whole afternoon clicking my camera phone and taking pictures of people who are nejoying doing it. I can’t spoil what really happen in there but I will do some follow up about it.
Just the same it was a nice experience learning wakeboarding in paper you may say. But definitely when I will come back I will try the amateur version which is knee boarding for me to experience the one of a kind extreme sport!
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